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Saturday, June 18, 2005
Saturday A.M.
1:00 a.m. - Finally get to bed, but as tired as I was, I wasn't entirely falling asleep.
1:45ish a.m. - The phone rang. It was a slightly anxious sounding Brad who said Jessi needed to be taken to the hospital. I toss some clothes on and go get my car. When I get to Brad's room, he is attempting to keep her conscious and breathing.
2:00ish a.m. - We make it to the emergency room at the hospital with no mishaps. She's rushed in right away and Brad goes with her. I go park the car and head to the waiting room to wait.
5:00ish a.m. - Well, been waiting for about 3 hours. Brad came out once to update me that they were running tests and x-rays and such to figure out the problem. In the meantime, I've been reading magazines, watching people, and thinking. Made it through 3 magazines so far. And about a dozen or so people have come through. A woman with an apparently terrible headache. A woman with a very young baby. A husband with an imminently expectant wife. A young man/boy in handcuffs with a police officer whom I happen to know from school. A few others with unapparent symptoms. The thinking mostly had to do with keeping myself awake, through reading and walking around the room. The rest of it though seemed to dwell on that beautiful little baby and the expectant mother. The second I saw the baby, I had a sudden desire to cradle it. And when the expectant mother came in, I found myself putting myself in her shoes and imagining what it must be like. Damn my internal clock trying to tell me I should be wanting to have a child. Fortunately my brain is quick to remind me that I would like to do so many things before I bring kids into the picture, not to mention I'd need to decide to settle down with a guy first. There are so many things I want to do, career wise and traveling wise. And despite the fact I love John deeply, I'm not ready to say he's for sure the right guy. Besides of course the part where he's in Oregon now and intends to be for awhile, and I have no intention of leaving Alaska too soon, since I have to finish school up here in December and then go back to Anchorage to take my full-time position with KPMG.
5:15 a.m. - Anyways, Jessi and Brad broke my reverie by coming out with Jessi laughing quite merrily. She was very, very happy on her pain killers and it was time to take them home.
5:30 a.m. - We arrive back here and I head straight to bed. It didn't take long for me to fall asleep this time.
9:30 a.m. - John sent me a message which I immediately replied to by calling him back. Hm, thought I had had only 3 hours of sleep, apparently I can't add after such little sleep though, cause that's a lot closer to 4, but regardless, it wasn't much sleep. Of course after talking to him for nearly an hour though, I'm fairly awake.
11:00 a.m. - Now I'm debating whether to go back to bed for a little while, or to just get a shower and go on with my day. Hm... no, I'm going back to bed. It would be suicide for me to stay up. At least an hour or two more of sleep will be good for me. So, back to bed I go, goodnight all!
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1:45ish a.m. - The phone rang. It was a slightly anxious sounding Brad who said Jessi needed to be taken to the hospital. I toss some clothes on and go get my car. When I get to Brad's room, he is attempting to keep her conscious and breathing.
2:00ish a.m. - We make it to the emergency room at the hospital with no mishaps. She's rushed in right away and Brad goes with her. I go park the car and head to the waiting room to wait.
5:00ish a.m. - Well, been waiting for about 3 hours. Brad came out once to update me that they were running tests and x-rays and such to figure out the problem. In the meantime, I've been reading magazines, watching people, and thinking. Made it through 3 magazines so far. And about a dozen or so people have come through. A woman with an apparently terrible headache. A woman with a very young baby. A husband with an imminently expectant wife. A young man/boy in handcuffs with a police officer whom I happen to know from school. A few others with unapparent symptoms. The thinking mostly had to do with keeping myself awake, through reading and walking around the room. The rest of it though seemed to dwell on that beautiful little baby and the expectant mother. The second I saw the baby, I had a sudden desire to cradle it. And when the expectant mother came in, I found myself putting myself in her shoes and imagining what it must be like. Damn my internal clock trying to tell me I should be wanting to have a child. Fortunately my brain is quick to remind me that I would like to do so many things before I bring kids into the picture, not to mention I'd need to decide to settle down with a guy first. There are so many things I want to do, career wise and traveling wise. And despite the fact I love John deeply, I'm not ready to say he's for sure the right guy. Besides of course the part where he's in Oregon now and intends to be for awhile, and I have no intention of leaving Alaska too soon, since I have to finish school up here in December and then go back to Anchorage to take my full-time position with KPMG.
5:15 a.m. - Anyways, Jessi and Brad broke my reverie by coming out with Jessi laughing quite merrily. She was very, very happy on her pain killers and it was time to take them home.
5:30 a.m. - We arrive back here and I head straight to bed. It didn't take long for me to fall asleep this time.
9:30 a.m. - John sent me a message which I immediately replied to by calling him back. Hm, thought I had had only 3 hours of sleep, apparently I can't add after such little sleep though, cause that's a lot closer to 4, but regardless, it wasn't much sleep. Of course after talking to him for nearly an hour though, I'm fairly awake.
11:00 a.m. - Now I'm debating whether to go back to bed for a little while, or to just get a shower and go on with my day. Hm... no, I'm going back to bed. It would be suicide for me to stay up. At least an hour or two more of sleep will be good for me. So, back to bed I go, goodnight all!
